“Hi my name is Melody and I am a Sensitive“. While true, those words have often struck a chord of confusion, frustration, loneliness and even shame for me.
I have always been Sensitive, I just tried to hide it for much of my life. Growing up I pretended I didn’t feel things deeply, tried to be more ‘logical’ and followed the path of my family that left me with the message that emotions were tricky, messy and at best, something to be tolerated, not celebrated.
It’s challenging being a Sensitive and even though I have worked diligently to come to terms with that part of my nature, I see how far I still have to go with it.
I’ve been frustrated dealing with people who seem okay with being hurtful, unethical or irresponsible – being an Empathic Sensitive in a world that at times seems so cruel and uncaring is hard! Because I feel things deeply, I feel compelled to live as honestly and authentically as I can… both because I recognize the deep impact that we all have on each other and also because anything less than that, feels bad in my heart and weighs on my soul. And it frustrates me that not everyone feels that.
While I get that there is a deeper plan at work than my human mind can fully comprehend, I still struggle that this is how life sometimes is. Sure, there are lessons and opportunities within it all, but seriously sometimes it just feels like WTF!
And then there are the Gifts of my Sensitivity, of which they are many, and the curses that seems just as big… and sometimes I wonder WHY this is my path.
But my path it is and yesterday, New Year’s Eve, was a day full of triggers, frustrations and deep emotional purging. Then this morning I awoke with a clear awareness that since it’s a new year and a new decade, it’s the perfect time to carve out a new story… one with a new set of values and perspectives that honours my Sensitive and Empathic nature.
So I say again (and I wish there could be trumpets played by angels for this part!)… “Hi, my name is Melody and I am ready to claim and accept, to a greater degree, that I am a Highly Sensitive, divinely inspired, and empathically guided being.“
My path, purpose and desire in this lifetime is to function with the deepest reverence for the human heart and to allow ALL of my emotions to guide me forward.
Who I am, how I am, how my life is unfolding and all that is in store for me, is being guided by the Universe, organized by Spirit, compelled through Oneness and Connection, and bound together by Love.
While my Sensitive nature can at times feel like a land mine that I must maneuver through, it also brings with it deep, powerful and accurate guidance… and I’m ready to own that I know so much, because I feel so much.
And finally, I desire love, not perfection, to become a stronger motivation, so I truly can be more guided by my inspirations, rather than my obligations.
These are my intentions for 2020 and to all the kindred souls who also struggle with their own Sensitive nature, I ask you to join me in celebrating the beauty in your heart and soul, and the deep emotional nature that you were born with.
The world needs you and your ability to understand and work with emotions… now more than ever. 2020 is the year of the Sensitive Soul! I see the beauty in who you are at the core of your being… and I hope and pray you do too.
I send you love, light and blessings…